When I quit my job to focus on content creation, I hoped that it would open up space. Space to think. Space to rest. Space to create more intentional.
But honestly, the opposite has felt true.
I couldn’t even tell you exactly how I’ve been filling my days lately but they’ve felt… chaotic and full. Somehow I have fewer jobs now, no more 9-5 stacked on top of content work, and yet I’ve been working working working, skipping my usual afternoon walked, being glued to my computer at night, and overcommitting myself to everything.
There’s this fear I hold around productivity.
If I’m not hustling (ugh, that word!), not proving my worth, not constantly doing, I’ll lose momentum. Or worse, people will think I’m not “doing enough.”
And then layered on top of all that mental noise, life happened.
I got engaged.
I had a week with seven (!) doctors appointments.
I launched my YouTube channel
I came back to this Substack.
I got diagnosed with SIBO
I went on vacation.
And oh yeah , I QUIT MY JOB.
It’s been… a lot.
Instead of giving myself time to breathe, create, and zoom out like I hoped, I panic-dove doing everything.
So, I’m hitting pause. Not forever, just for a monent. Enough to ask myself what I *actually* want to carry into this next season. What I want to let go of. What I want to make space for.
Below are a few questions I’ve been walking through to help me reset, plus my own honest [and maybe messy…] answers in case you want to do a lil spring cleaning of your own mind, too 💗
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